Many times we choose forgiveness for social reasons, because "we have to". We wear the mask of "it's OK for me, as long as you are OK." But by acting this way, we skip the healthy process of "recovery" from our trauma. We go through all the “allowed” stages of emotional reactions and never express our anger, but lock it somewhere deep inside us.
There is no time limit within which one must pass through all the stages of grief, anger and achieve forgiveness. Friends, relatives, or even a counsellor can support us throughout this process. If someone is rushed to "close the case" by going directly to forgiveness, then they most probably will suppress their true feelings, or even deny their existence and their importance. But the fact that these feelings are skipped doesn't mean that they disappear. They're there, they live and breathe and wait for the next opportunity to re-surface. And then, either they take the form of a psychosomatic symptom, or they appear as anxiety, depression, panic attacks, or as aggressive behaviour.
But how can you forgive the person who treated you in such a bad way? How can you overcome the shock, the terror, and ultimately this strong desire for revenge? When it comes to forgiveness, the question is: what purpose does it serve?
Forgiveness is not a feeling which suddenly turns up, nor the fast and safe way to inner peace and happiness. Forgiveness has nothing to do with the person who hurt us but has everything to do with ourselves. Forgiveness begins with the decision to forgive, but it does not end there. It is a process that takes time and requires our commitment to a life full of experiences, but without repressed emotions. To insist on hatred and revenge is like holding a piece of burning charcoal with the intention to throw it at the person we hate: we are the first to be burned! Forgiveness means that we have decided to leave the hatred behind so as to give ourselves a chance of befriending our past and of moving towards an amending and more fulfilling future. What they did to us was very bad indeed, but what we do to ourselves by not moving on with our lives may be even worse.
Going through grief and anger are prerequisites to further proceed to the decision to forgive. The decision of forgiveness is based on the realization that in this way the one who forgives gains from it, (even if there is no effect to the one who is forgiven), while hate hurts the one who seeks for revenge (and may not have any effect on the one that is hated) . Therefore, it doesn't matter why the other person acted in such a detrimental way towards us (hatred, selfishness, indifference, or other reason). The decision of forgiveness has nothing to do with the Other, but all to do with ourselves.
If we allow someone to come to our house and rob us, we will forgive him but we will not forget. If we forget, then probably we will be robbed again!
Separate the person from the behaviour.
Do not push yourself to forgive the Other immediately.
Protect yourself and your dignity.